This project started basically on an impulse, and out of a motivation to create things. I have been feeling a bit down on myself lately because of my production output. I haven’t released a video in almost a year, and I haven’t released a podcast since February.

So how do I fix the fact that I’m upset about not making stuff? Start making stuff.

I decided I needed to start doing things that don’t require a ton of friction. I like making videos, but I need to figure out a rhythm. I still don’t even really know what my brand is so I need to just make videos consistently and figure it out as I go. Once I figure it out, I think it will feel less daunting, and I won’t feel like I have to climb over this wall my brain has built every time I start a new video. The wall is what has been keeping me from getting started for a long time. Not the idea that I can’t climb it, but that it is sitting in front of me, so tall, so intimidating. The more I stand in front of it, the more I think about how hard it will be to climb it. I create a feedback loop that perpetuates my aversion to doing things that are hard. Writing doesn’t feel so intimidating to me; it feels almost frictionless—now that I have done the barest minimum of work to get this website up. I still have a lot to learn, but right now, as I am writing this, it feels good to be doing it.

Hopefully that is starting to change. I am going through a lot of pretty huge life changes that I’m not ready to talk about openly yet. All my old habits and routines are obliterated. The state of transition I am in makes it hard for me to build new routines in my temporary setup. All I can think about right now is what is coming in the next few weeks. I don’t want that to be an excuse though. I don’t want to do nothing just because I’m in a whole new paradigm.

So naturally, now is when I decided to kick my creative ass into gear. What better time to start a new project than while every aspect of my daily life is about to change.

I’m talking about this as though I’m super stressed about it—maybe I am a little bit—but I am actually quite excited. I’ll be able to talk a little more about it later, but I think it will start to make sense soon.

Anyway, watch this space for more developments. I’m holding myself to making at least one post per week until the end of October, and by then hopefully I will have made a habit out of it.

Thanks for reading all the way to the end. Bye for now!